Monday, September 3, 2007

Iowa Burial

Many of you are waiting on information for the burial. We will bury mother in Bellevue on October 6th - in the morning, followed by a lunch in town. She will be buried with Jack and Dorothy. Further details will come as we get closer.

I am hanging in. I start a new job this week and should keep my hands busy for awhile. And it couldnt come a day too soon, as I was getting a little stircrazy last week.

I know I have been asked what will I do with the blog, now that there are no real updates to be had. I dont quite know yet, but I know I am not yet done with it. There are still many things I can do, update you on my latest cause - battling Alzhiemer's Disease. Or on my life - although, not very interesting at times ;) Its a new forum that we can all partake in!! If you have any suggestions, leave them in the comments or email me!

Hope all is well.

Much Love.

shana

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

March 14 1947 - August 11, 2007

My mother lost her battle with Alzheimers on Saturday morning. I went to visit her on Saturday morning, and five minutes after I left, they put her to bed and she drew her last breath. It was sudden but it quite a blessing.

Thank you so much for the outpouring of support. My family and I truly appreciate everything.

The Rosary will be at 6:30 on Thursday, August 16th at St. Pius X Catholic Church. Mass will be held Friday at 10 am, also at St Pius.

Cards can be sent to

Shana Gibbs
2904 Barton Skyway #289
Austin, Texas 78746

In leiu of flowers and gifts, please make a contribution to the Alzheimers Foundation and our September Memory Walk.

http://capitaloftexas.kintera.org/faf/login/page_edit.asp?ievent=227093&lis=0&kntae227093=49A92013037148D48C31D999F0A78D0F

Thank you again for all your love and support.
I look foward to catching up with everyone soon.

Monday, August 6, 2007

Memory Walk 2007

This fall, The Alzheimer's Association will be hosting Memory Walks all over the country - in an effort to raise money to find a cure for Alzheimer's while raising awareness of this devasting disease. Currently over 5 million Americans have Alzheimer''s disease. Unless we find a way to change the course, 16 million Americans could have Alzheimer’s by 2050.

Austin will hold their Memory Walk on September 29, 2007 starting at Austin High School and walking Town Lake. After the walk, we will gather at Hula Hut to celebrate our efforts and just have a good time.

I am going to raise $1,000 for our team, in hopes that our team raises $5,000. We can do it. It seems big now but once you start brainstorming in your email list, talking to friends and collegues - it gets simpler by the day.

If you would like to donate, please visit.

https://www.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=227093&lis=0&kntae227093=8426A35C493A474FA7EB2FB6FDB449C4&supId=185109522

This is the perfect opportunity to get involved in the fight to find a cure. You can join our Austin team or find one in your own city at www.alz.org .

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Dancing with Rose

This weekend, I bumped into an INCREDIBLE read about Alzheimer's - Dancing with Rose: Finding Life in the Land of Alzheimer's by Lauren Kessler. It was a real read about the disease, about life in nursing homes, and the humanity of people. Words have never resonated so deeply. I laughed. I cried. I wrote the author - that is how big of an impact this book had made.

Below you will find thd the book description, Kessler's website and a link to Amazon.

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Dancing with RoseOne journalist’s riveting – and surprisingly hopeful – in-the-trenches look at Alzheimer’sLike many loved ones of Alzheimer’s sufferers, Lauren Kessler was devastated by the ravaging disease that seemed to turn her mother into another person before claiming her life. To better understand the confounding aspects of living with a condition that afflicts four and a half million people a year, Kessler, an accomplished journalist, enlists as a bottom-rung caregiver at a residential Alzheimer’s facility she calls Maplewood. Life inside Maplewood is exhausting and humbling, a microenvironment built upon the intense relationships between two groups of marginalized people: the victims of Alzheimer’s and the underpaid, overworked employees who care for them. It is their charge to feed, clothe, bathe, and tend to the needs of dozens of residents, many of whom have only the most tenuous connection to the world around them. But what surprises Kessler more than the disability and the backbreaking work is the grace, humor, and unexpected humanity that are alive and well at Maplewood. The residents in Kessler’s care give a human face to what has always been considered a dehumanizing condition, and transform her notions about the disease and “end-of-life” in general. Among those in her care are Hayes, a dapper 91-year-old, a formerly stoic man who has become, under the influence of Alzheimer’s, talkative and witty with the timing of a Borscht Belt comedian; Marianne, a sophisticated, educated career woman who lives in a well developed, completely logical, entirely fictional world of her own creation; Rose, deeply demented, seemingly unreachable; and Eloise, gentle and self-effacing during the day, contentious and needy at night, who becomes Kessler’s adopted mother. Dancing with Rose is forceful and funny, clear-eyed and compelling. An illuminating and intriguing narrative about the relationships and realities of elder care, Kessler’s immersion offers a new, optimistic view on what Alzheimer’s has to teach us, and is a much-needed tonic for the many people faced with providing care for someone they love.

www.laurenkessler.com/

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0670038598?ie=UTF8&tag=minervaclarks-20&linkCode=as2&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=0670038598

Monday, July 16, 2007

Hands On

I have been trying to make it to San Antonio at least three times a week, focusing on meal times. She will eat more is you are there with her. It has been a very hands on experience, as I have gotten to know the nurses, doctors and other residents well. I feel Salado Creek is a good family setting, for both her and I - any concerns are immmediately addressed, which always adds greater comfort and all that you can ask.

I talked to the doctor about what we can do to help her keep her busy throughout the day. She is very focused on different fabrics and touches. The doctor suggested a special baby blanket, which has different fabrics and colors which will help to entertain her. Oh, and slinkys! Human touch is always great, so I try to get there and rub lotion on her hands and take care of her nails.

I talked to Julie, the Director of Nursing today inquiring about the same - different perspectives are always helpful. We both believed physical therapy would help and I was under the impression she had been taking it. Double checking she has not been evaluated since the first few days she was there - which was incredibly different with the dibilitating drug Abilify she was on. Therefore, she will now be taking Physical Therapy five times a week - It is aggressive but will help to keep her moving and strong.

I also asked about the fact that she is pocketing food and will not swallow. She has doing this since about March, but each time I inquired about it at the last two homes - I was told there was nothing they could do. But the more I ask at Salado Creek, the more response I get. They will work with Speech Therapy to not only help to get her speaking again but to swallow too.

Today was not a good day though. There is normally a flash of recognition when I come to see her, if not for just a few minutes. But today there was none. Those days are difficult but we overcome. Because tommorrow is a new day and yet another day of possible clarity.

On Friday when I went for dinner, I said "How are you today!?" She said her infamous line, "Alledgedly awake". The only two words she said for two hours - but she is still there. She is more alert and awake than she has been in a month - so for that we are grateful.

Picture Time

I have been weary of putting pictures up of my mother, because I want her remembered for the beautiful woman you remeber. But I know that many of you are unable to make the trek to Texas to see her and are interested to see how she is. And because I want to make this blog all inclusive and making you feel as though you are making the steps with us, as if you were making the daily journey.

As you have been here along the way, you know that this disease has been a fast progressed one. She is unrecognizable from even one short year. And surely does not look the ripe young age of 60.

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Taken in her room at Salado Creek.

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I am trying to get her to do more hands on things. This small toy - a childrens etchasketch, helps to keep her mind strong and hands busy. But it is here you can see the confusion is evident.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Medication Update

Things here are as well as well can be. Mom was taking a medication called Abilify - to slow her down and it did just that. So much so, that she was catatonic. John and Pat saw her one day and knew immediately she was overmedicated. Between communication with the doctors and nurses, we were able to get her off alot of the antideppressants she had been taking. This has helped to wake her up a bit more and make her aware of her surroundings. It will take a few weeks to truly cleanse her body of the effects of this certain medicine, used for those with bipolar disorder.

Her nurse, Michelle, said that most mornings she is up and out of bed trying to put her clothes when she walks in to check on her. This is good news, of course. But she is still relegated to a wheel chair, as she has lost alot of muscle capacity.

I am trying to get down to San Antonio to have lunch and dinner with her a few times a week. She is still not eating very well but if someone sits with her, she will attempt to eat more.

Theres not much to report but its something :)

The Savages

I went to see the movie Evening last week and ran across the movie below. Its a little insight to what the past year has been - in a comedic black comedy that hits a little close to home. If you have a chance check it out.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

God's Timing

I am very sorry that it has taken me so long to update the blog with news. I know many of you are checking back to see what exactly is going on. On June 1st my mother was admitted to a hospital in San Antonio to stabilize her medications - helping her mainly with anxiety. Last Thursday, she was moved to a nursing home in San Antonio - in our old neighborhood. Its home. Like many things in my life, this new home came full circle. I'll spare you my details, but just know, this was all God's timing and as always, I have learned quite a bit from this experience alone.

I saw her last Friday and for the first time in a very long time, it was difficult. She has aged tremendously in a few short weeks. And everything has intensified, her emotions are non-descript. She is in her own world and is unable to comprehend alot of what you ask. She is unable to speak and just nods. She did give me one slight smile the other day, making my heart sing of course. These days hold alot of tears and alot of laughter.

I spoke with the doctor today. She gave me an idea of what we can expect. Mainly, she expressed that my mother is in the END stage (very technical, i know). And as we have known for some time, we dont know what to expect in terms of time. It could be six weeks ...six months ... one year. It was just ONE year ago I placed her in assisted living mainly because of her Dementia. This disease has progressed so far in that short time and I know it will do the same from here on out.

Two short weeks ago she was walking and now is relegated to a wheelchair. The doctor communicated to me that each time she will get sick, she cannot bounce back like we can. It is the ole two steps back, one step foward routine. She's always going to be a few steps back from where she once was. The doctors have been incredibly patient with me, explaining and truly comforting and personally calling me directly - which I must say, has not happened thus far. Open communication goes a long way.

They are doing speech therapy with her to try to regain some of her speech and possibly emotions. The doctor has also ordered occupational therapy to help her attrophied muscles to see if she could possibly start using a walker soon. She is continuing to pocket food which also tends to be an issue. But they do not believe that there will be alot of room to improve and to basically be prepared for anything. Steps foward and back will be a likely story in the coming weeks or months.

Tuesday, while in San Antonio I spent time with our family priest, Father Francis. He is helping to guide me through this time of unstability and being the counsel I despretely need. He and I are going to see my mom on Friday for the Annointing of the Sick.

Thank you to everyone who has us in your thoughts and prayers. Keep 'em coming... we need them more now than ever. They are much appreciated. I know this is alot of information and I'm sure there will be much more in the weeks to come ... keep checking back.

I am headed out of town this weekend for a girls weekend in the Texas Hill Country, nothing like getting into nature to get back to the basics and a little R&R.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

U.S. News and World Report: The New Face of Alzheimer's

This is an extremely long article but I found it months ago in the December edition of U.S. News and World Report. Although those depicted in the article are not as far along as my mom, it is a clear indication that she is far from alone at the young age of 60. It is one of the best articles that the battles those with Alzheimer's must find - emotionally, physically and financially. And it is happening to more and more people ... earlier and earlier.

Below you will find the link and the full article. Definitely worth a read.

http://www.usnews.com/usnews/health/articles/061203/11alzheimers.htm

Alzheimer's Today
Once considered an elderly affliction, it is now claiming younger victims
By Josh Fischman

Posted 12/3/06

O'FALLON,MO.–The Post-it note on Charley Schneider's shirt says to call his wife, Barb, at work. In his pocket, Schneider has a pad with other instructions, such as remembering to meet some friends outside town who are coming to visit for a few days and guide them back to his house. Earlier in the morning, Schneider found other reminders from Barb on the dining room table: "take out the garbage" and "take your pills."

Schneider is a former cop, fireman, and part-time private investigator. He needs these missives to get him through each and every day, because he's losing his mind. Schneider has Alzheimer's disease, and he's only 55 years old. "I think we keep the Post-it people in business," he says, settling back into an easy chair in his two-bedroom apartment about 45 minutes west of St. Louis. He and Barb moved there at the end of 2005, two years after he was diagnosed with early-onset Alzheimer's. The couple hoped that selling their large house would simplify Schneider's life, making it easier for him to find things in a smaller space. "We can still talk and drive and even work in some jobs," Schneider says, "but we need reminders to help us get by."

By "we," Schneider means the several hundred thousand people–perhaps as many as 640,000–under the age of 65 who have dementia, the vicious thief of minds that steals memories, personality, relationships, language, and ultimately the ability to function as a human being. Alzheimer's is the most common form of the disease. Recently, thanks to better diagnostic tests that lead to earlier detection, the medical community has started to recognize that dementia is an equal-opportunity destroyer. "In the last five years, more younger people have been showing up at support group meetings and in doctors' offices, asking for help, and we realized this is something we need to start taking seriously," says neurologist Ronald Petersen, an Alzheimer's and memory disorders specialist at the Mayo Clinic. It afflicts people in their 50s, their 40s, and even in their 30s. "Alzheimer's is not just a disease that hits 80-year-olds in nursing homes," says Dallas Anderson, a specialist in the epidemiology of dementia at the National Institute on Aging.

"The walking dead"? The disease may be the same for all ages, but everything about having it is different for its younger victims. Unlike older patients who are typically retired, confined to an assisted-living facility, and whose children are grown, young sufferers are in their prime: workers, mothers and fathers, and caretakers who have duties and responsibilities, car payments, and mortgages. They suffer with memory troubles for years without an accurate diagnosis, since many general physicians still regard dementia as a disease of the aged and infirm. "Nationally," says Pierre Tariot, director of the Memory Disorders Clinic at the Banner Alzheimer's Institute in Phoenix, "there's not enough help for younger people with dementia–or older people." There is some basic research, though. Scientists studying the genes of younger patients have found three mutations that seem to make some susceptible to the disease. But these genes don't explain most of the cases, says John Morris, director of the Alzheimer's Disease Research Center at Washington University in St. Louis. The research is important, he says, "but because of where they are in life, they also need a lot more social support."

In the years before they are diagnosed with the disease, younger people may fail at and lose their jobs, leaving their families in financial hardship and having to wait years before qualifying for disability or Social Security. After diagnosis, Schneider says, "friends and employers sometimes turn away from us, like they're afraid they might catch the disease."

Since most dementia-support programs are geared for infirm, aged people who can't take care of themselves, people like Schneider started pushing for change a few years ago. That effort has finally begun to yield some results: Six months ago, the national Alzheimer's Association issued its first report acknowledging early-onset disease as a widespread problem. It wants to see a greater role for early-onset patients in clinical trials to help develop new medicines before they decline further, in addition to more support programs geared to younger sufferers. The association has put together a national advisory panel of people with dementia, including Schneider, to help turn these ideas into action. "We'd like people to stop thinking of us as the walking dead and instead, as impaired survivors, people with a handicap," says Schneider. "We're the first people who have been inside Alzheimer's and can tell you what it's like, and we want you to listen."

Though they have a progressive and incurable brain disease that impairs them, many younger sufferers remain relatively sharp and active while they try to figure out how they can continue to make meaningful lives for themselves. "My husband works a lot, usually 60 hours a week," says Alzheimer's patient Karen Waterhouse of St. Charles, Mo., who was diagnosed at age 49 and has become friends with Schneider. She had to quit her job because she couldn't memorize new material. "So I do all the bills and take care of everything around the house. I read every day. I have three daughters, one still living at home, and I take care of all that. But I have to push myself."

The cut-off point for early-onset dementia is age 65. Most of the 6.8 million Americans with Alzheimer's and related diseases are older. For Alzheimer's, the illness takes the shape of odd plaques and tangles of proteins–called amyloid and tau–that dot the brain and kill off neurons. The next most common form is vascular dementia, usually caused by a series of ministrokes. Then there's frontal-temporal dementia, characterized by the death of neurons in the front of the brain. All of these diseases cause cognitive impairment, usually memory loss but also problems in other domains such as language or judgment, to the point where a victim is not able to fix meals, bathe, or do other daily tasks without a struggle. Dementias can have early, moderate, and late stages; early-onset patients are usually picked up at the early stage.

The notion that young people don't get dementia is ironic. Back in 1906, German neurologist Alois Alzheimer's first patient whose brain showed the hallmarks of the disease was 51 years old. For most of the following century, Alzheimer's was known as "presenile dementia," a brain ailment of the relatively young. Doctors thought older people who lost memory suffered from something entirely different: atherosclerosis, or hardening of the arteries. It was not until the 1970s, when doctors began closely examining the brains of older demented people that they saw the same plaques and tangles identified by Alzheimer. The disease became the scourge of the aged. That it could affect those in midlife was largely forgotten. Until people like Schneider and Waterhouse began receiving the startling diagnosis.

Schneider's life seemed perfectly normal, with no hint of what was to come. He married, had two children and eventually five grandchildren, and he and his wife became foster parents. He entered the police force in 1977, and worked as a cop in various towns around St. Louis for 10 years and after that, as a fireman. He earned extra money picking up some home remodeling work and building fences. He also moonlighted as a private investigator.

Then around 2001, when Schneider was 50 years old, things started to seem, well, not quite right with both his body and his mind. Schneider was no stranger to physical ailments. In 1995, he got weak and bedridden, sick with what turned out to be a wheat, or gluten, allergy. The next year, he was diagnosed with diabetes and started taking pills and insulin shots. But this was different. "My coordination and balance were off," he says. "I had trouble hitting a light switch when I reached out for it. I found that I really had to concentrate on all my movements."

Over the next two years, memory troubles became more apparent. "At the firehouse, I had to leave my locker open because I kept forgetting the combination," says Schneider. "I had to open every compartment in the firetruck to find a piece of equipment. My driving was OK, because I had grown up in these neighborhoods and knew the streets." But Schneider's short-term memory was failing. "I couldn't recall the names of guys that I worked with." But the last straw, says Schneider, was when he forgot his wife's name, after 35 years of marriage. "So that was just terrible, and I knew something was really wrong."

First, a doctor told him he might have multiple sclerosis. Brain scans ruled that out. Hypertension, depression, and anxiety were all considered. Finally, in late 2003, after a complete neurological workup, a physician diagnosed Alzheimer's. Schneider retired from the fire department several months later, on disability.

"Like a flashlight." The long slog to a diagnosis isn't unusual for early-onset patients, says the Mayo Clinic's Petersen. Part of the problem is that physicians still don't think of dementia as the cause of memory problems in younger people. And there are a lot of other potential causes that need to be ruled out. "It could be MS, or lupus, or an unusual depression, or mild cognitive impairment," says Petersen.

To rule Alzheimer's in or out, a patient's family history is examined. That's especially important with early-onset victims, since a large number of them have a close relative who had serious memory problems. Then the patient undergoes a series of neuropsychological tests. "We need to find memory impairment plus problems in at least one other domain, such as attention or language," says David Salmon, a neuropsychologist and Alzheimer's specialist at the University of California-San Diego.

If dementia is the likely suspect, brain scans such as magnetic resonance imaging or positron emission tomography can help zero in on the specific type. So can a spinal tap. "None of these are good enough by themselves," says Petersen. "So you have to put them all together. Then you can look at your patient and say, 'I hate to say it, but it looks like it's likely to be Alzheimer's.' And then you talk to them about medications like Aricept or Namenda, which seem to keep the disease at bay for a while."

These are drugs that appear to enhance chemicals involved in the brain's abilities to form memories (box, below). They are two of five medications that are approved for mild to moderate dementia, and studies have shown that they stabilize people for several months to a year or two, helping to retain recall and language ability and keep the general mental state from getting worse. It's a limited respite, however, and eventually the decline continues.

Schneider, who says Namenda has really helped him, finds that his major complaint is a lack of focus. "With dementia, your brain is no longer like a light bulb, casting light everywhere at once," says Schneider. "It's more like a flashlight. You can only shine it on one thing." For example, he'll start to sweep the kitchen floor and plan to take out the garbage. So he'll look at the floor. Then wonder where the broom is. Ah, it's in the closet. So he goes to the closet, which is a mess. He thinks he should straighten it up. And by the time he's done with that, Schneider has completely forgotten about the garbage. "So I keep lists and write notes."

Younger dementia patients also often lose something integral to their livelihoods and personal satisfaction that most of their older counterparts don't: their jobs. Waterhouse was working in a payroll office in 2004 when her supervisor offered her a transfer. "I had always been good at math, but I guess he noticed that I was making some mistakes, or was taking a really long time to get things done," she says. The new job entailed answering questions from the public about city services. "That's where I ran into trouble," says Waterhouse. "There was this big brochure about different city services that we were supposed to work with, but I couldn't memorize it." So Waterhouse asked to go on medical leave, while she made the rounds of doctors. Several months later, with a confirmed Alzheimer's diagnosis, she quit.

That gives many early-onset sufferers a lot of time on their hands, and they channel their energies toward battling the disease. Schneider and several other friends started a support group about eight months ago, after finding that most other such groups are made up of 70- and 80-year-olds or are aimed at caregivers. "Part of it, honestly, is to keep us from losing our minds," Schneider says. The group gets together every month at a member's house and shares experiences and coping tips: Some of the favorites include brain games such as puzzles, meditation, and continuing education classes. "Trying to keep up with a bunch of normal people is exhausting for me," says Schneider, who adds that it takes him a bit longer to come up with words or concepts. "But these people go at my pace, and it feels much more relaxed and easier to keep up."

Advocacy groups are also responding to the need for specialized programs and support. Stephen McConnell, the Alzheimer's Association's vice president for advocacy and public policy, says the group is lobbying Congress for more money to study the specific needs of early-onset patients. Earlier this year the group was successful in getting Congress to expand eligibility for federal family caregiver support programs for the under-60 crowd, allowing early-onset patients to go to day-care centers funded by these programs. "That's real progress," says McConnell, though he adds that other efforts to get early-onset patients increased eligibility for Medicare disability insurance have failed so far.

Dark days. In the clinical trial arena, studies of new therapies are aimed mostly at the older population of dementia sufferers–not surprising as there are so many more of them. But younger victims desperately want to participate. "If there was a potential treatment that was pretty risky, I'd be willing," says Gerry Michalak of Getzville, N.Y., 63, a former schoolteacher who was diagnosed with Alzheimer's in 2005, six years after he first started having memory problems. "Hey, if things stay as they are now, I'm going to die anyway."

The disease, and the constant struggle to keep the mind in working order, can easily drive younger people with family and other demands into deep depression. Tracy Mobley, who was diagnosed with Alzheimer's four years ago at the age of 38, says there was a time when she felt at the end of her rope. "I just stopped trying to live. I stopped taking my pills," says the 42-year-old from Springfield, Mo. "And, of course, that made things a lot worse." The dark days stretched into a week, until her husband and a friend talked about what she did still have to live for: Austin, her 12-year-old. "I realized that I still had a son to raise," says Mobley. "I've had a few bad episodes since then, but I know I have to keep fighting for my family."

Schneider is counting on his strong faith-he prays regularly and fervently and believes that God will not give him troubles that his faith can't handle–to carry him through the deeper stages of Alzheimer's. He's heard all about the hostility, the paranoia, and the rages that later accompany forgetfulness. This is all too common among patients who view family as strangers, ordering them around and stealing from them objects that they can't recall putting someplace else. The idea of turning on his family scares him more than anything.

But since there's no sign of that yet, Schneider focuses on more positive things, like his latest campaign to find a place for early-onset Alzheimer's patients to spend their days to avoid becoming shut-ins. The model: community cafes for dementia patients first developed in Australia. "For people just with memory problems, and who can still communicate a little, they can go in there, drink coffee, play checkers, and talk to each other a little while their spouses go out and handle business instead of having to watch them 24 hours a day," says Schneider. For them, it would be a tiny bit of normalcy in an increasingly abnormal world.

Waiting game continues...

We are still waiting for a place to put my mom. There are not very many places who would like to take her ... and she keeps getting denied. She is too much of a liability to even a locked facility - if she gets out. Its a frustration for myself and her current nursing home.

She is currently in the hospital, in which they are playing with her medications to see if there is any indication in which she will slow down. The Alzheimer's is causing a severe chemical imbalance. All the sedatives that would knock you and I out for a good 12 hours, are making her move faster.

I keep apologizing to her nurse and he stopped me in his tracks. "Shana, this is not your fault, its the disease. I went through it with my parents ... We just need to make her stable." Its always nice to know that people have gone through this and we're not alone. We're still trying ... on so many levels.

I celebrated my 27th birthday on Monday. Here's to another year of life, liberty and the pursuit :)

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Mixed Blessings

In the world of Dementia, the patient longs for home - often times asking repeatedly to go home. They associate home with comfort and memories. Somewhere when they were once in control. It is wanting to return to that feeling. Being a woman of impulse, she acts on this feeling. Often.

What is a humorous quality of stubborness soon becomes a liability. My mother continues to stay on the secure doors and sound the alarm. She is cognitive enough to understand that if she leans on the doors for 15 seconds, they will open. She also now has a possee that will follow her out the door. It is starting to take more manpower to redirect her from the doors, and within minutes she will return because she cannot remember that this is wrong. It has become frustrating for everyone involved.

As you can see, this situation is no longer a feasible. She has been there for all of 45 days. Colonial Manor has asked that she be moved as their secure unit is not all that secure.

The problem becomes that she continues to be denied as nursing homes do not want to accept some one who will try to escape at every given turn. Colonial Manor is helping me to find a new facility but it continues to get harder and harder with each day.

But good news came today. She now is officially on Medicaid. This will alleviate all medical bills and keeping her safe in a nursing facility. I have been trying to get her on Medicaid for the past year - it has been a grueling process of bureacratic tape, but we are finally here. At 60 years old, there is not alot out there in the way of financial help.

Now we just have to find a new home. Please keep us in your prayers and we go through this grueling process. Will keep you updated on the latest news!

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Friday, May 4, 2007

Its a Gibbs Thing

I had a conference call with my mom's nurses today. As we went through certain situations - I had to laugh. Her personality is trying to break through the disease. You know her. She is one stubborn lady. It runs in the blood ...

They say she wont stay off the security doors. And that when they ask her to step away from the door (seperating the ALZ unit from the rest of the nursing home), she will look at them, smirk and put ONE finger on the door. Yes, she yielded ... but she still makes her gesture. I can see it "You will not stop me".

And the journalist she is, she is still taking notes and writing - although a little hard to read - she is still able to, which still makes my heart sing. And as clever as she is - she can still find the phone at the nurse's station, just in case, I'm sure. She may not have her memory but she has not lost that bit of herself. I ask God everyday for the grace to keep it coming.

It has been one year since she was first admitted to the hospital and this whole ordeal began. Although, the denial had been going on for much longer. I can't believe how far and fast it has all progressed since then. She is getting used to her new home. It is never easy - especially with Alzheimer's ... getting used to new environments and new people. But three weeks later, she begins to settle.

As for me, I'm ok. It is tough, I admit that now (very hard to do). BUT I get through. We keep on keepin' on. My mom was one of the most amazing things that happened to me, and I will forever know that. I was so fortunate to spend the time with her that I did. I have never questioned anything in my life and I will not begin now. As my great cousin 10 year old Maxx said at Thanksgiving - "Shana, you're ok, you're mom is always with you."

Yes ... yes, she is. I have never doubted that.

God love the innocence of children to keep us going.

The 36 Hour Day

It has been suggested to me to pick up the book, The 36 Hour Day. It was first published in 1981 - and although research has come along since then ... the disease has not. PATTERNS, as the nurses call it. It discusses caretaking features - although we are not taking care of the disease, its always a comforting to know how to see the disease. The way we handle the disease changes - but the disease itself does not. I have yet to pick it up but will at the end of the Legislative Session in 24 days.

Review of the book: "It has been estimated that five percent of older people suffer from severe intellectual impairment. So these two eloquent and readable guides will be much in demand as the number of families facing the challenge of caring for a relative with some form of dementing illness continues to grow. First published in 1981, The 36-Hour Day follows the format of the previous two editions but has been thoroughly updated to incorporate new information on the latest research, several drugs that hold promise, and genetic aspects of Alzheimer's. The heart of the guide remains unchanged, focusing on helping families cope with this progressive and irreversible disease. Besides tips on how to care for the demented during the various stages of the disease (for example, place a picture of a toilet on the bathroom door), the text discusses the different kinds of help available and how to seek it. Financial and legal issues are well covered, while sections on nursing homes and other alternative living arrangements provide advice and practical suggestions. Appendixes list recent books, videos, web sites, and U.S. and international organizations. The thrust of GentlecareR is a well-argued plea for a radical change in the way we care for Alzheimer's patients. In outlining her program, Jones states that this rethinking involves people, physical space, and individualized programs. Everyone in the physical plant, from maintenance worker to director, belongs to the care-giving team, as do family members and volunteers. Only when impaired persons can no longer perform for themselves a task like feeding themselves or dressing should it be done for them. Care should concentrate on what can be done, not what cannot. Because her emphasis is on the need for a comprehensive program of care and concentrates more on the institutional setting, Jones does not provide as many practical suggestions or the depth of advice for home care that Mace and Rabins do. Rather, her book describes how facilities can be designed and staffs trained to optimize the quality of life for patients. Both titles are highly recommended: Rabins and Mace for the practical help and advice, Jones for her eloquent presentation of a comprehensive program that treats patients with dignity.AJodith Janes, Cleveland Clinic Fdn. Copyright 1999 Reed Business Information, Inc. "

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

By an Act of Congress and the Grace of God ...

It has been a whirlwind 24 hours - but my mother is in a new home. With the help of Capitol staff, my new best friend at the Department of Health and Human Services, my tride and true friends and my very gracious loving family - I have survived. Thank you.

She is on a secure unit and with other patients with Alzheimer's, and is no longer odd man out. It will take her some getting used to, but she is no longer alone in this lonely disease.

If you would like to send cards and letters, her address is:

Sharon Gibbs
c/0 Colonial Manor Care Center
821 US Highway 81 West
New Braunfels, Texas 78130

I thought you would like to be the first to know. :)

Friday, April 6, 2007

Hello everyone.

After much thought I have decided to return to this idea of this blog. Welcome to entry #2.

These are trying times. Mom has regressed very severely since January when I began the idea of this blog. She officially has Lewy Body Dementia - you will find a description of the disaese below, to further help you further understand. Basically she has both symptoms of Parkinson's disease and Alzheimers. Needless to say, this is a not fun combination.

She is no longer talking, her wandering has become a severe problem, and is now pocketing food and not swallowing. The life in her eyes is gone, catatonic almost. Common in Lewy Bodies, she is currently living a world of thirty years ago - making it hard for her to recognize even me. Because of this, she is now beyond the care of the nursing staff and I am having to deal with the responsibility of moving her for the third time. This time to a full blown Alzheimer's unit. And honestly am unable to tell you how much time is left. She may have a few months or years, they are unable to determine.

As I have been working in the Texas Capitol for the last few months - I have been able to put a lot of my effort into finding resources and people to truly help. The problem with the bureaucratic system is running into dead ends and worst, being pawn off onto other clueless entities. It is a daily battle. I do not know how people who do not have legislative connections or "inquiries" truly get through the jungle. But it has been a god send to have people willing to guide me and introduce me to new avenues. It has taken alot of research and studying - I'm beginning to wonder where my medical degree is these days. :)

Happy Easter to everyone. Easter being the time of renewal, rebirth and rejoicing - I am truly blessed ... please keep us in your prayers.

Lewy Body Dementia

Dementia is a process whereby the person becomes progressively confused. The earliest signs are usually memory problems, changes in their way of speaking, such as forgetting words, and personality problems. Cognitive symptoms of dementia include poor problem solving, difficulty with learning new skills and impaired decision making.

Other causes of dementia should be ruled out first, such as alcoholism, overuse of medication, thyroid or metabolic problems. Strokes can also cause dementia. If these reasons are ruled out then the person is said to have a degenerative dementia. Lewy Body Dementia is second only to Alzheimer's disease as the most common form of dementia.

Fluctuations in cognition will be noticeable to those who are close to the person with LBD, such as their partner. At times the person will be alert and then suddenly have acute episodes of confusion. These may last hours or days. Because of these fluctuations, it is not uncommon for it to be thought that the person is "faking". This fluctuation is not related to the well-known "sundowning" of Alzheimer's. In other words, there is no specific time of day when confusion can be seen to occur.

Hallucinations are usually, but not always, visual and often are more pronounced when the person is most confused. They are not necessarily frightening to the person. Other modalities of hallucinations include sound, taste, smell, and touch.
Parkinsonism or Parkinson's Disease symptoms, take the form of changes in gait; the person may shuffle or walk stiffly. There may also be frequent falls. Body stiffness in the arms or legs, or tremors may also occur. Parkinson's mask (blank stare, emotionless look on face), stooped posture, drooling and runny nose may be present.

REM Sleep Behavior Disorder (RBD) is often noted in persons with Lewy Body Dementia. During periods of REM sleep, the person will move, gesture and/or speak. There may be more pronounced confusion between the dream and waking reality when the person awakens. RBD may actually be the earliest symptom of LBD in some patients, and is now considered a significant risk factor for developing LBD. (One recent study found that nearly two-thirds of patients diagnosed with RBD developed degenerative brain diseases, including Lewy body dementia, Parkinson’s disease, and multiple system atrophy, after an average of 11 years of receiving an RBD diagnosis. All three diseases are called synucleinopathies, due to the presence of a mis-folded protein in the brain called alpha-synuclein.)

Sensitivity to neuroleptic (anti-psychotic) drugs is another significant symptom that may occur. These medications can worsen the Parkinsonism and/or decrease the cognition and/or increase the hallucinations. Neuroleptic Malignancy Syndrome, a life-threatening illness, has been reported in persons with Lewy Body Dementia. For this reason, it is very important that the proper diagnosis is made and that healthcare providers are educated about the disease.

Other Symptoms
Visuospatial difficulties, including depth perception, object orientation, directional sense and illusions may occur.

Autonomic dysfunction, including blood pressure fluctuations (e.g. postural/orthostatic hypotension) heart rate variability (HRV), sexual disturbances/impotence, constipation, urinary problems, hyperhidrosis (excessive sweating), decreased sweating/heat intolerance, syncope (fainting), dry eyes/mouth, and difficulty swallowing which may lead to aspiration pneumonia.

Other psychiatric disturbances may include systematized delusions, aggression and depression. The onset of aggression in LBD may have a variety of causes, including infections (e.g., UTI), medications, misinterpretation of the environment or personal interactions, and the natural progression of the disease.

Prognosis and Stages
No cure or definitive treatment for Lewy body dementia has been discovered as yet. The disease has an average duration of 5 to 7 years. It is possible, though, for the time span to be anywhere from 2 to 20 years, depending on several factors, including the person’s overall health, age and severity of symptoms.
Defining the stages of disease progression for LBD is difficult. The symptoms, medicine management and duration of LBD vary greatly from person to person. To further complicate the stages assessment, LBD has a progressive but vacillating clinical course. It is typical to observe a significance progression, followed by regression back to a higher functioning level. Downward fluctuations are often caused by medications, infections or other compromises to the immune system, but may also be due to the natural course of the disease.

Tuesday, January 9, 2007

Welcome

I started this blog for you ... my family and close friends.

As you may know, I havent exactly been very good at the phone in recent months. In an effort to keep everyone to speed and in the loop on the progression of our journey - this blog was born. A writer by trait, this only seemed natural.

It is my goal one day to make our journey known. As I began searching the internet for anything on this encounter, in what seems like years now, I found solice in other's words. In others blogs. There is not alot out there on dementia, on either side of the battle. I hope one day we are able to change that. This is the first step.

I am a very private person, but know that one day our inspiration may facilitate anothers hope to keep moving on, as we have done. Although on the vast chaotic world of the internet, this blog is not open to the public - but seen only by those I invite... it is safe from wandering eyes.

I want to take a moment to thank you all for the outpouring of support I have received in the last year. It's been a tough year, but we've made it. And I have you to thank. Each of you has given me a gift so dear and I am very grateful to have you in my life.

But you dont just meant the world to me, but to my mom. That is why you are here, our nearest and dearest. The memories we have shared are priceless. If I were to mention each of you, she would be able to share a few good memories. That is what life is all about.

I cant promise constant updates (as I am so very new to this whole thing) but keep checking back ... you never know what you might find. Of course, I'll be picking up the phone also - just thought this would do in those in between times!